Friday, July 3, 2009

jobless

i haven't feel so bored as i am right now. I can't even go to sleep. It's 5.45 am for heaven's sake. It's been a while since i've been in terengganu.doing nothing but sleeping,eating,browsing the net and of course..waiting for the phone to ring for any interviews for the post i have applied through emails....

Some people tell me not to waste my time waiting for the "perfect" job to come. It's like it's never gonna come. With the percentage of jobless fresh graduate right now, i shouldn't be too choosy for any available jobs....the truth is....i think they're pretty darn right bout what they said....i don't wanna wait.but it's all i can do..i mean if i go to work with any available post they have right now, i'll be spending more money compared to when i sit and home and doing nothing..seriously...what kind of job would pay me for 2k and above which are in line with what i'm interested with and not what my certificate has...sometimes i think i am stupid....going to the courses which i have no interest at all. i should go into teaching.everybody says that..even now, they're paying lots of money for educators like teachers and lecturers...it's just that i think i'm not suitable for that type. i am just not the educator-kinda-type. i'm more like a person who likes to socialize..meet other people..communicate...bingo.i've should have taken mascomm compared to TESL, rite? i know..but at that time, i was just trying to fulfill my dad's wish. i never regretted it. it was at least the last wish i have granted.i've planned to further my studies in mascom but you know what..i have financial problems..which means i need to find a job first before i further the studies..so i gave up on trying to get myself to get the place there because i think i have no money to pay for the fees..little that i know i can actually sign for a scholarship with the government under.....oh wait..i can't recall..but whatever..who cares..i'm just the unlucky person here.

It's kinda stressful when those people around you are pushing you to get a job when you still believed that you will wait and will get the job that you have dreamed for..it's just that they have...time delay....i don't want to be overconfident here. i just don't want to repeat any other mistakes..i mean, let me wait..and be satisfied and not jump from one job to the other feeling stressful every single day..which in turn will affect me and what i wished for..let them say what they want...i need some quality time here in my hometown..i think it's better this way than waking up everyday realising that you're stuck in the same day and you have to go through the day over and over again..until u make things right..at least, i'm not stucked in a space of time..or something....or maybe..this is time for me..to...write again....:)

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